You Just Don't Know

I don't know if it's the season or what...but I have been feeling soooo thankful these days. I'm not going to question it I'm just going to keep on thanking him as much as possible. Something good is about to happen I can feel it coming.

I Can't Believe...

You know I wish I had listened to Ledisi's song Thank You from her Christmas CD before writing my last post because I would have added it to that post.

This song speaks to me and to the reason why I made my last post. I'm very thankful for my experiences and mostly thankful to God for keeping me safe and loved even when I don't realize that I am. The link below is just a short clip of the song. Oh yeah, I'm really really feeling Ledisi's Christmas CD but then again...I like everything she does!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!

http://site.soulmusicstore.com/media/12-ThankYou_1.mp3

Thank you

I'm having a quiet evening listening to Sarah Vaughan and reading blogs. One blog( lmross-moanerplicities ) got me to thinking about people in my life. His Blog was thanking people who had saved his life. Some of my friends have passed away who gave me life and some are still here but I don't often get to see them or talk to them. I just want to thank those that are gone and the ones still here for being in my life and helping me to become who I am today. It's important to thank your friends and tell them that you love them. I think I'm going to call those that I haven't seen in a long time tomorrow. I miss them!!

Friends that have gone to live with God:

2 Michael's, 2 Kevin's, 2 Greg's, Vernon, Rhonda, Ronnie, Marcus, Clifford, Pierre, Papoose, Tony, Juanita, Reggie, Dorothy, Ernest, 2 Joey's, Al, Vincent, Eleanor, Audrey, Sidney, Iona, Steve, Chris, Claude, Michaelangelo, Shawn...I had to stop listing these names it was making me sad. There are plenty more though and I'm thinking about them as well.

Friends that I haven't seen in a long time:

Ari, Terry, Kevin, Fidel, William, Monte, Doug, Mitch, Antonio, Allan, Alain, 2 Demetrius', Steven, Lorna, Denice, Janice, Foster, Will, 3 Charles', Albert, Alex, 3 Ron's, Terrance, 2 Marlon's, Henry, Ron, 2 Keith's, Roderick, Troy, Michael, 2 Donald's, Reggie, Earl, Allen, Cliff, Daniel, Sabrina, 2 Tony's, 2 Mark's, Ricky, Tanya, Hank, Dorn, Jack, Victor, Danielle, Jessica, Dwayne, James, Kitty, Harold. Erroll. Lee, Darryl, Eric, Patrick, Ray, Tim, Marcus, Marva, Jamal, 2 Brian's, Maurice, Michelle, Jerry, Tracey, 2 Melvins, Wayne, Orson, Eddie, Kenny....Getting sad again so I'm stopping.

It Was Time

I just found this while looking for my birth certificate. I can tell it was typed on a typewriter...so you know it's old...shaddup all you youngins. Yall probably never typed on a typewriter before.

It's from many years ago...not even sure when this was done...




It was time



I never dreamed...it would be so easy, to finally walk on out the door...but I'm tired of tryin' to make you smile...and livin' everyday on trial...and tired of always bein' the one---who loved a little more.



It was time...

When you really get down to the bottom line, we never had the poetry...we just tried to make it rhyme...



It was time...

that we were over...it was time.

and now I know the emptiness I'm feelin' --- is more for what we missed than what we had...



But watchin' somethin' dyin' slow...

can hurt much more than lettin' go...and even whith the loneliness you know...

I'm almost glad...



Guess I wasn't right for you, and you weren't right for me...

and it doesn't pay to sell your soul...

just for company...



It's better bein' lonely....



It was time.

Dear Anonymous

You who read my blog know that most of the time I do not respond to negative comments. You might not know that a lot of times I delete them. I made a post after Obama's victory. Short and sweet. My post mentioned change as did President Elect Obama's campaign. If one believes that there would not be some type of a change by just him being the president is misguided. I would not venture to guess what the changes will be but there's no question in my mind that there will be some. Be it his policies, america's thought about black men, or just that the president is Black and not White.

More than anything in the world I hate statistics simply because one can say whatever one wants using them. As did Anonymous.

He/she said, Obama won because of 60% of the white and Latino vote went to him and that... only 20% of the black population even voted. Just looking at those numbers makes a statement. However, the numbers do leave some important information out. What percentage of the White population voted? What percentage of the Latino population voted? Was it 20% of those populations that voted also? Is this 60% from White and 60% from Latino populations or from all votes 6o% were White and Latino? I won't claim to know the answers. For the numbers to mean anything those questions should be answered I think. I will agree that if only 20% of all the Black population voted that that is sad. I wonder if some of the Black people that would have wanted to vote couldn't for some reason good or bad? Guess more statistics are need for that answer.

I do believe that Obama was voted in by all faces of America and I have heard no reports nor did I state that the Black Community should take credit for his win. The anonymous he/she quoted a study that was conducted on why Blacks were voting for Obama and that not one could come up with a reason except change. When asked what they wanted changed they couldn't answer. Hmmmm, that sounds suspect to me. Anonymous if you watch most network news you'll notice that sometimes reporters gravitate to those that might give an uneducated response to any question. Still I even find it hard to believe that an uneducated person wouldn't be able to verbalize one change. Hmm was the interviewer too aggressive or condescending and the person being interviewed just refused to answer. I guess we'll never know unless you Anonymous were the interviewer and can shed some light.

Later Anonymous says that 60% of whites that voted for Obama did so because of the facts that he brought and that he/she believed the election showed that the racial divide still exist, but with the Black population. So we're back to the 60% again. So again is this 60% of all whites that voted or 60% of the whites that voted for Obama? If it's 60% that voted for him then 40% only voted for change and possibly didn't know what they wanted changed either?

Anonymous states he/she comes from an area that has overcome the racial divide. Please let me know what that area is so that I can move there! This is an assumption on my part but I suspect that Anonymous is not Black. It's sometimes difficult for those not experiencing racism to know the many subtleties of it. That's no fault of Anonymous' own it's just very difficult to empathize with things that you have no real understanding of. But I see he/she is trying and that should be commended.

The last statements on my blob by Anonymous I'm posting verbatim.

It will not be until all of us can stop separating each other till we all can come together.It was a historical election, not to say the least.

I have no idea why Anonymous chose my blog to make his/her statement. Anonymous...you damn tootin it's historical! As you saw, my statement on President Elect Obama's win was simple and did not say that We Black People Did It. So Anonymous (which i think is Bitch-Assness to post anonymously) if anyone is perpetuating a divide it is you. So maybe your area has not progressed as much as you think it has. You certainly haven't. I take my earlier statement back. I don't want to know what area you live in or want to move there. It would appear that there is still some unresolved racism lurking deep within the bowels of your area's population. I wonder what percentage that is? When you're down to 0% and all have shit that ignorance out and wiped your asses truly clean then let me know where that area is. Until then Anonymous I do sincerely hope that I have facilitated some change to your heart and thoughts.



Oh yeah Anonymous...who started this anyway? I know I want it to stop!

Yes We Did!!!

In the words of Sophia in the Color Puprle, "...thangs gonna change round heah!"

Mind Medicine

I believe that everyone creates a path that we trudge optimistically towards our goals. Sometimes we get turned around and sometimes we might stumble and fall or almost fall. Whatever the case may be it jolts your system and you have to regroup so that you can continue on the path of your goals. Sometimes it's hard to get up or keep moving but stopping should not be an option.

Treat your life as if it's a movie with a theme song and music for each stumble and triumph. If you need some assistance in finding the music to pick you up and put you back on your path you might want to check out Soul Motivations (Mind medicine) by Dwayne Barnes. You can purchase this cd on cdbaby.com and have the disc sent to you or download the mp3 version of it for quicker gratification. You can also listen to a couple of the tracks before you purchase it. I have 3 favorites already. Onna' Move, Beautiful Life and So So Good.

I happen to know Dwayne and knew that he is an actor, producer, song writer and stylist, but he kept what feels like a secret from me. Although I'm sure it wasn't really a secret. Guess I just didn't ask the right question. He can sing as well!

Dwayne has a voice that is reminiscent of old skool soul with a neo soul current reality. In old skool soul you get your emotions of love laid out on the table that rang true for so many. Neo soul does that same thing but with a new beat to keep up with the times. This CD of Dwayne's is full of emotions but not the emotions that one has already heard about. Soul Motivations is about honoring yourself and realizing that you can do whatever it is that you need to do. You just have to believe in yourself.

So if you need some encouragement because you've lost your way a little don't fret. Listen to this mind medicine to give you the dose of what you need to achieve what at the moment might feel unachievable.

Thank you Dwayne for sharing your gift with me and to thank you I'm sharing it with others, gladly.