Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Ten Guidelines From God

My previous post was written out of pure frustration.  God works in mysterious ways.  Earlier this evening I was thinking about my Friend/Nephew, Marlon who passed away and found an old email that he sent me  titled Guidelines from God.  Normally I usually delete these chain like emails but for some reason I kept this.  I know I never read it before today but for some reason I kept it.  I'm glad that I did.  This email has changed the way that I was feeling.  I hope that if you are feeling down it does the same for you.  

Thank you Marlon, I miss and love you.

Ten Guidelines From God 

Effective Immediately,
please be aware that there are changes YOU need 
to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be 
completed in order that I may fulfill My promises 
to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in 
this life. I apologize for any inconvenience, 
but after all that I am doing, this seems very 
little to ask of you. Please, follow 
these 10 guidelines 

Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit
and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here
to take all your burdens and carry them for you?
Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little
thing that comes your way? 

Something needs done or taken care of. Put it
on the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY
to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care
of the problem.. I can't help you until you turn
it over to Me. And although My to-do-list
is long, I am after all... God. I can take care
of anything you put into My hands. In fact,
if the truth were ever really known, I take
care of a lot of things for you that you never
even realize. 

Once you've given your burdens to Me,
quit trying to take them back. Trust in
Me. Have the faith that I will take care of
all your needs, your problems and your trials.
Problems with the kids? Put them on My list.
Problem with finances? Put it on My list.
Problems with your emotional roller coaster?
For My sake, put it on My list. I want to
help you. All you have to do is ask. 

Don't wake up one morning and say,
"Well, I'm feeling much stronger now, I think
I can handle it from here." Why do you think
you are feeling stronger now? It's simple.
You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking
care of them. I also renew your strength
and cover you in my peace. Don't you
know that if I give you these problems back,
you will be right back where you started?
Leave them with Me and forget about
them. Just let Me do my job. 

I want you to forget a lot of things...
Forget what was making you crazy.
Forget the worry and the fretting because
you know I'm in control. But there's one
thing I pray you never forget. Please, don't
forget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU!
I want to hear your voice. I want you to
include Me in on the things going on in your life.
I want to hear you talk about your friends
and family. Prayer is simply you having
a conversation with Me. I want to be your
dearest friend.. 

I see a lot of things from up here that you
can't see from where you are. Have faith in
Me that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me;
you wouldn't want the view from My eyes.
I will continue to care for you, watch over you,
and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me.
Although I have a much bigger task than you,
it seems as if you have so much trouble just
doing your simple part. How hard can trust be? 

You were taught to share when you were
only two years old. When did you forget?
That rule still applies. Share with those who are
less fortunate than you. Share your joy with
those who need encouragement. Share your
laughter with those who haven't heard any in
such a long time. Share your tears with those
who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith
with those who have none. 

I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime
you could have so many diverse experiences.
You grow from a child to an adult, have children,
change jobs many times, learn many trades,
travel to so many places, meet thousands
of people, and experience so much. How can
you be so impatient then when it takes Me
a little longer than you expect to handle
something on My to-do-list? Trust in My
timing, for My timing is perfect. Just
because I created the entire universe in
only six days, everyone thinks I should
always rush, rush, rush. 

9. BE KIND :
Be kind to others, for I love them just
as much as I love you. They may not dress
like you, or talk like you, or live the same way
you do, but I still love you all. Please try
to get along, for My sake. I created each
of you different in some way. It would be
too boring if you were all identical.
Please, know I love each of your differences. 

As much as I love you, how can you not
love yourself? You were created by me for
one reason only -- to be loved, and to love
in return. I am a God of Love. Love Me.
Love your neighbors. But also love yourself.
It makes My heart ache when I see you
so angry with yourself when things go
wrong. You are very precious to me.
Don't ever forget...... 

Lord I'm Tired

I am so tired mentally.  I'm feeling like I'm falling into a bit of depression and all because of a work environment that is sucking the life out of me.

People always tell you that when you don't like your job anymore to find out what you are passionate about.  I understand that statement but at the same time it is overwhelming.  I can be passionate about something but the overwhelming part is that that is not what I'm currently doing.  Hence, to start doing that thing will mean a big change to your lifestyle.  Usually, because when starting something new you won't get the same type of money that you are currently getting in your job.

Maybe it wouldn't be so overwhelming if I had a safety net.  Family or someone I could move in with while changing a career.  But who wants to put that burden on someone.  I'm used to having my space and I know everyone else does too.  How can you do such a thing and not know how long it might take for your passion-filled new career to take off.

I know that what I am going to have to do is figure out what I want to do with my life.  Unfortunately, I think it's going to be a drastic change.

I wonder if I'm the only one that feels this way?  Do Black men feel like they are asked to adhere to a different standard than their co-workers?  Do you feel like co-workers can talk to you in a particular manner that may not be the most polite...but if you do it then you are told that you are an angry person.  Do you feel like you are given duties that you're co-workers aren't and without the benefit of clear instruction or resources?

I know I do.  The challenge is making a change to something where I won't feel these things.  A challenge because of the invested time I've spent in a company that holds a pension for me, 401k and the benefits of being a long term employee.  Companies have created flat organizations these days.  All this means is that there aren't as many positions or levels to move through and if you do change positions then we don't have to fit you into a salary grade because basically all jobs have the she title.  Therefore, you garner little additional money and are systematically moving laterally within the company.

I know I'm ranting without telling all the details of my current situation...but ya see.  I' just tired.  Tired of fighting for what's right, tired of fighting co-workers who are trying to compete with me and I don't want to compete.  Tired of talking about it, tired of my love having to see me looking as if something heavy is on my mind that he can't do anything about.

So I say Lord I'm Tired.  Please help me get through this and shed light on my passion and let happiness rule my life.