Fifty!

It just hit me. In 47 mins I'll be 50 years old and 1 day! I really hadn't thought much about turning 50 because I was doing so much. Remodeling my kitchen and planning a bday party at the last min.

Everything turned out extremely well. The kitchen got done a week before the party. Although rushed and stressed I got the place cleaned up and started the preparation for my bday party. Everything was fantastic! I've never felt like this on my bday. Even though I didn't have a date. I felt like all the attention was on me. I'm a leo so you know we like that.

A few people asked me in my 50 years what have a learned. My answer is this. Appreciate everyone for who they are. See the differences in people and see how you can still be connected to them. My party was definitely an indication of differences. Many people from different backgrounds ages likes and dislikes. The amazing thing is that everyone had a wonderful time.

I didn't have candles on my cake...not because I didn't look for some the day of the party...I just couldn't find any close by. So when thanking everyone for attending I realized that I didn't need any candles because all the people that I love were there...and they were my light.

I'm starting a tradition ...no candles on bday cakes. Let those you invite be your light. Anyone in your life that does not shine brightly either light their fire or remove that candle from the cake of your life.

Below was a pic of me (told ya I wasn't keeping it up here long), and a little bit of the decorations I did to the house for my party. (those are gone too)

About Me

Birthday: 8-11
Birthplace: Maryland
Current Location: At my desk
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: dark brown with a little grey :-(
Height: 5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: African-American
The Shoes You Wore Today: tan loafers
Your Weakness: oatmeal raisin cookies and ice cream and nipples
Your Fears: Birds
Your Perfect Pizza: meat lovers ..no anchovies!!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: getting my kitchen redone
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up: What am I going to do today
Your Best Physical Feature: My skin
Your Bedtime: when ever i start nodding or realize i gotta get up in the morning
Your Most Missed Memory: my best friend and i hanging out all day long
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither
Do you Swear: Hell yeah
Do you Sing: I do but not well...and only for myself.
Do you Shower Daily: Yes there are those days on the weekends that I don't cuz i'm not going anywhere.
Have you Been in Love: Yes
Do you want to go to College: Finished
Do you want to get Married: Hmmm not sure
Do you believe in yourself: Yes I does!
Do you get Motion Sickness: uh huh
Do you think you are Attractive: Yes
Are you a Health Freak: I wish
Do you get along with your Parents: Sort of
Do you like Thunderstorms: no
Do you play an Instrument: My organ..hee hee
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
In the past month have you Smoked: Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Yes perscription for back pain
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Noooooooo anybody wanna set me up?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes Beverly Center
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Yuck hate fish
In the past month have you been on Stage: Yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no u gotta have a date for that
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: Yep
Ever been called a Tease: When I was young...I don't play now
Ever been Beaten up: Hell to the Naw
Ever Shoplifted: yes I was young
How do you want to Die: In my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Rich
What country would you most like to Visit: Ghana again
Number of Drugs I have taken: Today? only 1
Number of CDs I own: too many to count
Number of Piercings: none
Number of Tattoos: none
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Don't regret anything. However wish I made some differnt choices.

In a Boy/Girl…
Favorite Eye Color: Green
Short or Long Hair: doesn't matter
Height, Tall or Short? either
Physique you like -Muscular, Athletic, Slender, a Few Extra Pounds, Large, Obese: Athletic or Slender

Hairy or smooth? Smooth

Now what about you????

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Well I'm sure you can guess that if I'm writing a post that I didn't win the damn Lottery! Grrrrrrrrr I'm mad about that but must push on.

Instead of winning the lottery I got back pain. Dammit. I was trying to move this cement bench top that I have in my yard. There were some guys here putting up new fencing and they didn't put the bench back together. I think I know why now! Well I bent over to lift it..(obviously not the right way) and realized that this damn thing is heavy. So the little bit that I lifted it off the ground I quickly put it back down. I didn't feel any pain at the time just went on about my business. Well the next morning when I woke up I could barely get out of the bed! What the hell. At the time I didn't even remember the bench it took me almost 4 days to realize that that's what had happened. Is that a sign of age...lawd it probably is. sigh.

Anyway, my back was OK for most of the week except getting out of bed. That is until Friday when it was hurting all day long. So 2 Saturdays ago I went to Rite Aid and asked the Pharmacist what I should take that was over the counter. Motrin she said and take 3 tablets. Well I read the directions and it said to take 1 or 2 if 1 didn't help. So I figured the drug companies know what they are talking about and took 1. Well within a half hour I was feeling fine. That is until Monday when it took me a couple of hours before the back pain subsided. Then I went into work. On Tuesday, the pills didn't help and I was at work feeling like OMG! So I left early to make an appointment with the doctor. Of course my Doctor was unavailable so I had to go to Urgent Care. The Motrin had kicked in again so I was OK but the Doctor I saw gave me a prescription for muscle relaxer and Ibuprofen. Thank God he also gave me a Doctor's excuse cuz I was in hella pain this morning. It's been almost 12 hours and I'm finally feeling like I can walk about ok.

I was reading online something that said walking helps so I'm going to head out in a minute to return some lamp shades that don't fit. That makes no damn sense to me. Why wouldn't any lamp shade fit on to any lamp. It may not look right but they all should fit. So I'm back to playing the lottery and of course someone won the money after it went up to $200 mil or something. I think 3 tickets won. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr

Oh Yeah En Vogue is trying to come back. Good luck girls!

Don't Know Why

I don't know why that all of a sudden I want to share my artwork. Maybe it was the nice things that some people said. So I changed the painting on my blog to a painting that I did in the 12th grade.

Sorry about the quality of the picture but I'm not that great at taking pictures of paintings. I guess there's an art to that as well.



I probably won't keep the picture up very long so I hope you enjoy it and it makes you think of good things. When I painted it my ex-sister in-law thought it was of her because she was pregnant. NOT! It was a tribute to my mother when she was pregnant with my younger sister who I was very protective of when we were young. I think my mother must have said something to me to cause me to be so protective. This painting depicts my mother, my sister inside and myself on alert.





I remember when anyone ever approached my sister I was right there to find out what they wanted with her. And it had better be a good reason!

My sister hated it though. hee hee

Things you may not know about me.

I just felt like sharing some things about myself. Since I don't normally talk about myself and I think I need to get better at doing that. Here are just a few things about me. Now how do you bring things like this up in normal conversation. I just don't know.

1. In High School I ran in the Semi Finals of the Junior Olympics. (At the time it was the 100 yard dash...Now 100 meters. Guess that's a hint to my age..hee hee) I didn't make it to the finals because my blocks weren't tight enough and they slipped at the start. I thought the ref was going to call a false start but he didn't. I ended up getting 3rd place. They were only take 1st and 2nd to the finals. :-( I'm still scarred by this event.

2. The painting on my blog to the right. Looking Out For My Brother was painted by yours truly. I don't paint very often at all. I guess it takes too much energy. All the different shades of brown and black in my paintings are representative of all the different shades of African Americans.

3. When I was young I wanted to be one of the Carrol Burnett dancers. There was only one black male dancer on her show. He was the only one that I would watch, and think. I can do that!

4. I won 1st place in the Real Men Cook contest here a few years ago. I made a casserole. A white female chef gave me her card wanting my recipe so she could put it in a book she was doing. I never called her because she mentioned nothing about paying for it. I wasn't having that. Her whole approach to me was suspect. She sort of slipped me her card and whispered her question to me.

5. I've always wanted to start an ethnic men's fashion magazine and also a nightclub where you could go and hear good live music, have a drink and a little something soulful to eat. Those are still dreams I have that may one day come true.

6. I'm terrified of birds. Long story...but it involves a rooster. How ironic that I love to eat chicken..hahaha

7. If I could ask for any gift from God I would ask for the gift of singing. I ache when I hear someone that sings well. And what is that thing with people that sing well, that only sing under certain conditions? I would sing anywhere and everywhere. If I was in an inappropriate place to sing I'd be humming at least.

OK 7 is one of my lucky numbers so I'm stopping here.