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This year is not starting off to positively. However, I'm hoping that it will change soon.

So many things are going on in my head right now that I don't even have the words to express them.

A very good friend of mine passed away on Saturday and I'm just speechless. He was the Angel that saved my life. Have you ever been so depressed that all you did is go to work and come home and nothing else? Well I was (although I will never go through that again). That's all I did go to work and then come home. I didn't even go to the grocery store unless it was to get detergent to wash clothes or toileties. Kevin was there for me. He would call me almost every day to talk to me or invite me out to some event or to just come to his house and he'd cook.

There were many times that I told him that I would meet him someplace and just never showed up. Normally, myself include, one might just stop calling thinking that the person just doesn't want to be bothered, and why waste my time calling and they never show up. Kevin didn't stop he kept calling me and kept inviting me. That's why I say he saved my life. I can not imagine what would have happened with me if it weren't for him.

I'm going to leave you all with this: You may know people who are strong, they laugh alot and everybody loves them. Many times those individuals are hiding many things. Even if you don't think they need it, make yourself always available to them. They are the fragile ones. Take care of them the best you can, even if you think they don't need it. And don't forget to say I love you.